Becoming A Mom
When you become a mom to a newborn you will never sleep again. You’ll have less time for yourself either. You go from having zero responsibility to full on responsible for a tiny human being.. and not just in the mean time… it’s for life! Yes, these were the changes you’ve heard as many times as I have too. And while all these are true.. what I didn’t realize is the depth of that change.
When I became a mother, I felt different in so many ways! I’m still new to this, but I have more clarity now than when I first gave birth to my son. Everyone says it changes your life. You can’t deny that, and at first, what you see is all on the surface. You literally don’t have time for yourself, you can’t eat, sleep or even take a shower. You might as well say bye to all your basic human needs. It’s a 24/7 job and you work around the clock. You forget what freedom is like. Gone are the days when you could just grab your keys and bag and go get lost wherever for hours on end.
Now leaving the house requires a plan as coordinated as a military attack, and if you forget anything in that diaper bag, rest assured it will be a shit show.. and I mean literally! That diaper blowout will always happen when you’ve forgotten to refill wipes, diapers, or include a spare onesie, I can assure you of this.
This is all what you notice in the beginning. And then the fog lifts, and you realize something truly extraordinary.
It’s not just about those superficial changes to your life. It’s about how you can never go back and would never want to because you finally know what unconditional love truly is.
As you wipe the sleep from your eyes and fumble through your new routine, you realize just how much strength you really have. To pull yourself from exhaustion everyday because someone needed you. You want to do anything and everything for that precious little human who just entered your life. You finally understand what it means to put someone else’s needs before your own.
Before I had Ryder, I was very selfish with my time. Afterward though, I felt more deeply, perhaps due to hormones? Haha. I cared more deeply and loved more deeply too. I became soft but was also at my strongest. You go from being selfish to selfless.
If you’re about to become a mom and you wonder if you’ll ever be able to meet the needs of your baby, to love that baby more than anyone you’ve ever loved before in your life, I’m here to tell you that yes, you will. You won’t notice this change at first though.. and that’s okay!
Sure, you will likely look at that baby in your arms for the first time and be in love in a matter of seconds. Or minutes. Some women may take a few days. But it will hit you like a truck going full force into a brick wall.
And then you won’t care about anything else except trying to figure out why the baby is crying while having slept 5 hours total over 3 days. You’ll forget about all the sleepless nights but probably not when you leave the house with different pair of shoes. But as you settle in, you’ll notice that you want to become the best mom to your little one and this forces you to become the best version of yourself so your baby can flourish and that for me is one beautiful change.